Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Out the Window

Come to me, all you that are weary and are carrying heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. - Matthew 11:28

Thus far, I’ve been pretty successful in practicing non-violence and, perhaps self-righteously, writing about my great successes and the profundity I’ve discovered in the process.

So…yeah…all that was thrown out of the window today.

As per Lenten norms, I’m not blogging on Sundays. Sunday is the day of the Resurrection, and every Sunday is a ‘Little Easter.’ Now, that doesn’t mean I’m not going to practice peace. It simply means I’m not going to write an entry that evening.

But, if you’re a faithful reader, you might have noticed I didn’t write on Monday evening either.

Certainly, I attempted to practice peace on Monday. My task was to plant seeds, either literally or metaphorically. That I did. I planted seeds of care and dignity in the lives of the families that I cared for.

Yet, I still didn’t follow through. I didn’t write. But, it gets a bit worse.

This morning, I didn’t search out my task for peacemaking. Instead, I began the day watching a schlock reality show on Netflix. I also clipped my toenails, so I suppose the morning wasn’t all wasted time.

I got to work, ate a few pancakes then began the day. And just like that, my fate was sealed.

It was sealed because the day began like any other day. I wasn’t seeking to live into my quest for holiness. I wasn’t seeking to live into the life of non-violence I’ve committed myself to.

I ate two pancakes and two hard-boiled eggs. I drank one cup of coffee and acted as if nothing different was going on in my soul.

I didn’t heed the Spirit’s call to live into the holiness this season of Lent is offering.

And I suffered for it.

To whoever is reading, even if it is just my mother, I offer an apology and beg your forgiveness.

Hopefully, tomorrow is a more peaceful day.

By the grace of God it will be.

Hear us, Jesus Christ, when we ask for help to recognize temptation, for honesty to face it, for strength to resist it and the humility to give God the glory. - A New Zealand Prayer Book

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